In addition to my CRPS, I have injured my neck – I have ligament instability much like whiplash – which has resulted in every activity using more pennies than usual. I am so frustrated, every decision I make has ramifications I can’t foresee and everything I do is at a price. If I work the 3 hour photo shoot this afternoon, which is urgent and important to the client, there is a good chance I’ll be too sick to visit my horse tomorrow. So what do I do? I miss being able to live in the now and be spontaneous.